My day with Bridget

Note: Spoilers!!

 

The other day I took a sick day off work because I had a cold. I mean I went into work sick the other 4 days, and it’s a school so I deserved it.

Anyway so yeah I just stayed in bed and read Bridget Jones: Mad About The Boy. It was really enjoyable. I’m about halfway through the book and it’s so relatable – as much as a 20 year old gay guy can relate to a 50 something mother of 2!

The book is about Bridget’s endless struggle to find love as lovely Mark Darcy has passed away 😥 but also about the stress of being a mother and figuring out new age media/ technology. It manages to be as humorous as the 1st two novels with her best friends still giving her love advice.

She is writing a screenplay in the novel and continues to put it off because of other things like love, children, social media, etc. I understood this straight away as I’m always putting off writing my novel series. I know exactly what happens in the books. It’s all planned, I just had to write it!

The new guy (guys??) in her life are so damn hot. First you’ve Roxster. He’s young – late 20’s I think. Fucking hot. I’ll give you an example: “Mmmm. The way his face looks when he’s on top of me, the stubble on the beautiful jawline […], those beefy naked shoulders. […] feeling his hard-on pressing against my thigh. Oh God, he is so beautiful and such a great kisser, and such a great… Mmm, mmm.” Raunchy eh? I must say well fucking done Bridget! =] Our next guy, Leatherjacketman, is equally as sexy. Sigh, why can’t I have one?? 😦

Anyway, the day I was sick I read a part where Bridget goes through some dating rules. Side story, I’m on a romantic conquest at the moment so I payed attention to this part. And it’s not like a get all worked up every single time I kiss a guy. This one was different. He gave me the feels. In my chest. And it lasted like a week. So… you can understand why I reacted like this. Some of the rules are as follows:

 

  • Do not jump to conclusions or fantasize. Shit, spent a lot of time assuming a lot of things were happening/ weren’t happening and fantasizing! Ooops.
  • Respond to what is actually happening, not what you think is happening. Mmm, yeah I was coming up with a lot of things in my head, should’ve calmed down a bit.
  • Do not allow him to upset your life or equilibrium. Too fucking late for that!
  • Do not allow him to make you generally distracted and crazy. I looked up a bloody “5 stages of grief” plan and made a “12 stages of heartache” plan of my own using Florence + The Machine songs. I think my sanity is well gone by now.
  • Notice how he makes you feel. Oh I know all right. I know all too well! ;D
  • Always be classy, never crazy. Dammit!!
  • Don’t make him feel caged. Sent 8 messages in a row like a crazy person describing how my messages weren’t going through… turns out he was just asleep. :/

So yeah I must say I’m enjoying the book and God knows I’m learning a lot from it. Let’s just hope it all works out. For you Bridget AND for me!!

Stuff I love

Here a few things I like in this crazy world of ours!

  • Lists.  I read once in a book about this child who had aspergers syndrome that he liked lists. It’s interesting really because everyone’s got something you know? Like habits, etc.  I really love when stuff is sub-categorised by like colour or department.
  • Florence + The Machine.
  • EFFY EFFY EFFY.
  • Grace Helbig.
  • Chocolate cake with cream or vanilla ice-cream. Mmmmm indulgent. :p
  • Florence Welch.
  • Now, Now.
  • Trees.
  • Scores. I’m a major fan of movie scores. I like most types of music but scores hold a really dear place in my heart. It’s just the massive orchestrated movements and production are impeccable and really tell a story of their own. Some of my favourite scores include The Lord of The Rings, Harry Potter, Inception, Gravity, Pirates of the Caribbean, Cloud Atlas, Up, Avatar, Melancholia, Jurassic Park, ET, Back to the Future, Indiana Jones, Star Wars.
  • Chocolate.
  • Mamrie Hart.
  • Lorde.
  • Alice Glass.
  • Carey Mulligan.
  • Ke$ha.
  • Soundtracks. Some of my favourites are The Great GatsbyAmélie, Twilight (The Twilight saga is shit but there’s a serious amount of good indie bands and artists on the soundtracks), Hanna, Drive, The Hunger Games, Mamma Mia! (LOL)
  • I used to have an obsession with songs from ads. I still kinda do.
  • Mini vans – The Volkswagen ones.
  • Muted trumpet.
  • Justin Vernon.
  • Audrey Tautou.
  • London urban fashion.
  • Vintage advertisements.
  • Jazz music at night e.g. Miles Davis, Louis Armstrong, Billie Holiday, Nina Simone, Ella Fitzgerald, Art Blakey, etc.
  • Those few minutes before sunrise, where it’s the darkest, quietest and deadest time of the day. It’s like it’s the most alone you can ever feel yet its the most amazing feeling when the light hits the horizon.
  • Looking at places I’ll never go and people I’ll never meet on Tumblr.
  • 12.
  • Autumn.
  • Losing myself.
  • Alcohol.
  • Books.
  • Gregory Euclide’s art.
  • Old Paramore.
  • Favourite characters include Effy Stonem, Emily Fitch (Skins), Bridget Jones (Bridget Jones’ Diary), Leslie Knope, Ron Swanson, April Ludgate (Parks & Rec), Isabelle Lightwood (The Mortal Instruments), William Herondale (The Infernal Devices), Hermione Granger, Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter), Marshall Gregson (United States of Tara), Piotr Rasputin/ Colossus (X-Men), Indiana Jones (Indiana Jones), Juno MacGuff (Juno), Tracey Berkowitz (The Tracey Fragments), Donnie Darko (Donnie Darko), Johanna Mason (The Hunger Games), Simon Bellamy (Misfits), Josie Jones, Vod Nordstrom (Fresh Meat), Daria Morgendorffer, Jane Lane (Daria), Max Blum, Penny Hartz (Happy Endings), Lisa Simpson (The Simpsons), Lightning (Final Fantasy XIII), Jackson (Flight 29 Down).
  • Ellen Page.
  • Shannon Coffey.
  • Lana del rey.
  • Snagglepuss.
  • BEARDS!
  • Lady Gaga.
  • Slightly fucked up/ damaged/ quiet/ sad/ depressed/ etc. types of people/characters because I just think they’ve been through something and they just know how the world functions and know how people act. They’re knowledgeable and modest but they’ve got stories to tell you know?
  • Favourite supernatural creature: Werewolf or Faerie.
  • Loners/ the lone wolf character.
  • Hufflepuff 😛
  • A triumph over oppression.
  • Deep, heavy synths that sound like church organs.
  • VODKA.

12 Stages of Heartache

I have compiled this playlist of Florence + The Machine songs/covers to get through the grieving stages. Why 12? I don’t know, that’s just the number I got to. Here they are: 

 

1. Love – Bedroom Hymns. 

“This is his body, this is his love. Such selfish prayers and I can’t get enough.”

 

2. Anger – Howl.

“I hunt for you with bloody feet across the hallowed ground.”

 

3. Lust – Drumming Song.

“Louder than sirens, louder than bells. Sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell.”

 

4. Alcohol – Hurricane Drunk. 

“I’m going out. I’m gonna drink myself to death.”

 

5. Longing – Over The Love.

“Everybody see I love him.”

 

6. Sadness – Cosmic Love.

” The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out. You’ve left me in the dark.”

 

7. Pain – Heavy In Your Arms.

“He took me to the river where he slowly let me drown.”

 

8. Emptiness – Sweet Nothing. 

“There is a hollow in me now.// You’re giving me such sweet nothing.”

 

9. Truth – No Light, No Light.

“No light, no light in your bright blue eyes. I never knew daylight could be so violent.”

 

10. Acceptance – Never Let Me Go.

“A thousand miles down to the seabed, found a place to rest my head.”

 

11. Healing – Take Care.

“I know you’ve been hurt by someone else.//I’ll take care of you.//Cause I’ve loved and I’ve lost.” 

 

12. Moving On – Shake It Out.

“And I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I’m going to cut it out and then restart.”